13 April 2023

Hywel looks depressed

Hywel is sitting at the breakfast table, looking depressed, when Gaynor reminds him about the vigil tonight;  “You’ll have to go – it will look suspicious if you’re not there.”

"What exactly is that supposed to mean?"

“What exactly is that supposed to mean?” he demands, as Gaynor calls to Esther to come and get her breakfast.   “I’m not going and that’s it!” he decides, 

"You can't carry on like this, Hywel!"

but she warns him he cannot carry on like this;  he has hardly left the house since the accident.

"How am I supposed to face people?"

“How am I supposed to face people, knowing what I did?” he asks, and she insists that he has to stop this nonsense.   “Listen, you’re as guilty as me,” he goes on.

"I was not responsible for the accident!"

“How many times do I have to say it?   I wasn’t to blame for the accident!” Gaynor snarls, 

Gaynor calls to Esther

then calls to Esther again.

“Doesn’t that girl ever listen?” Hywel shouts, 

"Don't take it out on her, Hywel!"

but is advised not to take out his frustration on her.   

"I don't want a lecture from you, of all people"

“I don’t want a lecture from you, of all people,” he growls.

"Britt said Gwern is talking a little bit"

Colin arrives at the Deri flat to see Dani;  “Britt said that Gwern is talking a little bit.”   Dani replies that he is more himself and she is about to go to the hospital.  

"I wanted a quick chat about tonight"

“I won’t keep you – I just wanted a quick chat about tonight.”

"That's a lovely idea, Colin"

She regards it as a lovely idea, and she will bring over some photos.   Colin tells her, “I thought it would be a good opportunity to get everyone together, you know, to think about everyone who’s injured – and those who have left us.”

"Are you going to talk about Dylan?"

“Are you going to talk about Dylan?” she wants to know, and he says that he is, if that is all right with her.   “Yeah, well, he was Gabriel’s father, wasn’t he?”

"He's at the reason Garry's in prison"

“I wasn’t sure, you see, because he’s the reason Garry’s in prison,” Colin goes on.   

"He's in prison because he deserves to be there"

Dani is eager to point out that Garry is in prison because he deserves to be there.   

"Will you say a few words about Tyler?"

“Will you say a few words about Tyler?” Colin asks, “You were his sister.”

"I can't stand there in front of people"

She is not sure about that;  “I can’t stand there in front of people who think I was part of what Garry did.   Not many have offered their condolences – 

"I'm not saying anything"

“I’ll be there, but I’m not saying anything.”   

Colin mentions Gwyneth 

As she is about to leave for the hospital, Colin adds, “I wasn’t sure whether I should mention Gwyneth, as she was Gwern’s mother.”

"I won't come near the place if you mention her!"

Dani cannot believe that he is serious;  “I won’t come near the place if you mention her name!”   

"Forget that I said anything"

He tells her to forget that he said anything about it.

"You can't change people's minds about what she did"

“Look, the vigil is a lovely idea, but you can’t change people’s minds about what Gwyneth did,” Dani stresses.   

"Is Gwern well enough to have these?"

Colin reaches into his pocket and takes out a packet of those sweets, if Gwern is well enough to have them, and Dani thanks him, before setting off for the hospital.

"What should I do with Gwyneth's clothes?"

Cassie comes into Megan’s shop and asks for her advice;  “What should I do with Gwyneth’s clothes?”   

"I don't want them here!"

Megan makes it crystal clear that she does not want them in her shop.   

"I thought you might have some contacts"

“No, of course – but I thought you might have contacts somewhere far from here that would like to have them.”

"Put a match to them!"

Megan’s suggestion is, “Put a match to them!”   Cassie is surprised that she is trying to forget that Gwyneth ever existed.   

"Several people wish she had never existed!"

“There are several people in Cwmderi who wish she had never existed!” Megan snarls, “And when the time comes to bury her, she’ll have a council funeral – no-one in the family will organise one!”

"She should have a proper funeral"

Cassie is adamant that she should have a proper funeral;  “Cremation, burial – it doesn’t matter, as long as she’s in the cemetery like everyone else in this village.   And I want a service at the graveside.”

"What – after everything she's done?"

“What – after everything she’s done?” gasps Megan, 

"We're not here to judge, Megan"

and Cassie points out that they are not here to judge, but to try and understand each other.

"Understand someone like her?"

“Do you think it’s possible to understand someone like Gwyneth?” Megan demands, 

"She was a good friend to me"

but is told that she was a good friend to Cassie, and she cannot ignore that, whatever Gwyneth may have done.

"The deacons will have to approve it"

“It won’t be a matter for me in the end – the deacons will have to approve it,” says Megan, and Cassie hopes that she will support the proposal.   “But aren’t you worried about making people angry?”

"Gwern has the right to say goodbye to his mother"

“Gwern has a right to say goodbye to his mother – I’m sure you and I can agree on that, at least,” points out Cassie.

"Did you get on all right at work?"

Kath asks Mark if he got on all right at work 

"You must be glad to get out of the house"

and he says that he did;  “You must be glad to have an excuse to get out of the house – I can still feel him – Tyler.   

"Honestly, his smell is still here"

“Honestly, his smell is still here.”

Mark is becoming increasingly uneasy as she predicts that he will get nightmares, exactly like she did after losing Dyff.   “It was as if I could hear his voice – 

"Like he's still here – only he's not paying rent"

“you hear Tyler, do you?   Like he’s still here – only he’s not paying rent, is he?”

"How are you going to pay the rent now?"

She wonders how Mark is going to pay the rent now;  he will have to find twice as much, and then there are the bills.   

"I'll sort something out, Mam"

“I’ll sort something out, Mam,” he answers.

"You're welcome to come home, you know"

She continues, “You’re welcome to come home, you know that.”

“It hasn’t come to that yet!” he snaps, “Right, I’m going out to get some fresh air, instead of listening to you 

"Going on about the smells of dead people!"

“going on about the smells of dead people!   I don’t need your concern – and there’s no need for you to call in every day, like you’ve been doing.”   

"OK, I'll go, then"

His mother says she does not want to be in the way, so she will go.

They look at photos of Tyler 

Iolo and Dani are going through photos of Tyler, and he says that he has put up a photo on Instagram of their wedding day.   

"How was Greta after you told her?"

“How was Greta after you told her?” Dani asks, and he replies that she does not understand properly.

"How did Gwern react?"

“How about Gwern?   How did he react?”   Dani confesses that she has not told him, 

"The doctors said not to upset him"

as the doctors said not to upset him until he is stronger.   Britt comes in and finds them there.

"Would you pay tribute to Tyler?"

“Colin wanted to know if you would pay tribute to Tyler?” she asks Iolo, “You don’t have to say a lot, but Dani didn’t want to do it.”   

"I don't know what I will say"

He rather reluctantly agrees, but does not know what he will say.

"Talk about the happy times"

“Just say how much fun you had together – the happy times,” Dani tells him, 

"I've got some photos of Gwern here"

and finds some photos of Gwern for the vigil.   They are told that Sioned has brought some photos of Eileen.

Then she finds Hywel's card

As she looks in her bag, Dani discovers the card from Hywel and looks horrified by what she sees written inside it.

"You're thinking about giving Gwyneth a tidy funeral?"

Kath comes in to see Cassie;  “Is it true that you’re thinking about giving Gwyneth a tidy funeral?” she demands.   

"Megan didn't keep that quiet for long"

Cassie remarks that Megan did not keep that quiet for very long.

"Just throw her into a hole!"

“She deserves nothing better than being thrown into a hole after what she did!” Kath rages, 

"You used to be friends with Gwyneth"

and Cassie seems to remember that she used to be friends with Gwyneth.   

"I knew there was another side to her!"

“No – business partners – I knew there was another side to her!”

"There's another side to all of us"

Cassie emphasises, “There’s another side to all of us,” 

"Not everyone goes round killing their neighbours"

and Kath insists that not everyone goes around killing their neighbours.

“She murdered Jaclyn – I don’t know what you’re considering giving her a respectable funeral.”   Cassie comments that she asked Megan to keep it to herself.   “Well, you’re lucky that she told me, then – everyone else will think you’re mad!   

"Just thinking about your good name"

“I’m just thinking about you, Cassie, and your good name in the village, OK?”

"Why is he sorry about Gwern?"

As they look at the message from Hywel, Dani wonders why he is sorry about Gwern;  

"It wasn't Hywel's fault"

“It wasn’t Hywel’s fault.”   

"That's not what some people are saying"

Britt remarks that is not what some people are saying, as he was drinking on the morning of the wedding.

"He would have been breathalysed"

Iolo says that he would have been breathalysed, but she casts doubts on the system;  “You know what the police are like – he’s a councillor – 

"Have the police 'done him a favour'?"

“it wouldn’t surprise me if the police have ‘done him a favour’.”   Iolo is sceptical about this suggestion, but she continues, 

"He's got a guilty conscience"

“Why do you think he hasn’t been to see you, Dani?   You’d expect Councillor Hywel Llywelyn to be the first to come and see you – unless he’s got a guilty conscience.”   This makes Dani think.

"I have to fetch Esther"

Gaynor has just had a phone call to summon her to fetch Esther from Cadi’s house as she is not feeling well;  

"You can go to the vigil"

“You can go to the vigil,” she instructs Hywel, “I’ll sort her out and then I’ll come over later, OK?   

"Unless you're thinking of leaving Cwmderi"

“You have to face people – unless you’re thinking of leaving Cwmderi.”

"I've already considered that"

He replies that he has already considered that and then there is a knock at the door;  

Cai arrives, about the bus insurance

it is Cai, who wants Hywel to sign the insurance form for the bus.   “You’ll need to give a statement about what happened.”

"You were supposed to drive – that's what happened!"

“What happened?” shouts Hywel, “You were supposed to drive – that’s what happened, and now I have to face all this mess!”   

"Yeah – I know what you're going through"

Cai maintains that he knows what Hywel is going through.   “Do you?   With all due respect, you have no idea what I’m going through!”

Hywel's phone rings

Cai once again emphasises that Gwyneth caused that accident, and then Hywel’s phone rings;  he goes into the other room to answer it.   

"Can you go to the vigil with him?"

“He’s turned his own home into a prison,” Gaynor complains, “And refuses to go to the village – can you go to the vigil with him?   I have to pick Esther up.”

"It will do him good"

Cai will be pleased to do so and predicts that it will do him good to be among people.   Then Hywel comes back, having spoken to the police and with a degree of relief tells them that the result of the alcohol test has come back;  

"I was way under the limit!"

he was way under the limit.

"Now you can go to the village"

“Right, what did I tell you?” says Gaynor, “Now go to the village – you have no reason to hide here now, do you?”   Cai also encourages him to do so, and they can go together – the insurance document can wait.   

"Perhaps I shall get a bit of peace"

Hywel succumbs to their entreaties, hoping that it will get him a little bit of peace.

The candles are out in force . . .

In the darkness outside the Deri a great number of candles have been lit and several photographs of Tyler are displayed.   

 . . . and Iolo is looking at them

Iolo is feeling emotional as he looks at them.   

Colin has found more candles

Colin has found more candles at the back of the shop and hands them to the various people who have gathered.   

“Why are you giving them away?   You should be charging!” Britt moans at him.   He tells her not to talk nonsense – no-one holds a vigil to make money.   

Iolo ha problems taking a selfie . . .

Iolo tries to hold his phone in such a way as to take a photo of himself by the display, 

. . . so Dani assists

and Dani offers to do it for him;  

The resultant photo . . .

he looks at the result 

. . . he finds very emotional

and is almost in tears.

"That's the last time I confide anything in you"

Megan approaches and finds that she is being followed by Cassie, who tells her, “That’s the last time I confide anything in you.”   

"You're not going to make a fuss here, are you?"

Megan cannot believe that she is going to make a fuss there, 

"You promised to keep it quiet"

but is reminded, “You promised to keep it quiet.”

"It wasn't something I could keep to myself"

“It wasn’t something I could keep to myself,” Megan protests, and is accused of talking behind Cassie’s back.   “Listen – we have to consider everyone’s feelings at a time like this – the cemetery is for this area and so people have the right to know,” growls Megan 

She walks away

and then stalks off.

Hywel feels very uncomfortable

Hywel wishes he did not have to be there, 

Colin joins them . . . 

then Mark joins him and Cai, 

. . . but his mother glowers at him

but after a stern look from his mother goes over to stand by her instead.   

"Not still angry with me, are you?"

“You’re not still angry with me, are you?   I’m sorry, OK?”   

"Where's your candle, then?"

She suspects that he does not mean it, and demands where his candle is.

He says he does not want a candle, but she points out that everyone else has one.   

"I can remember Tyler without a candle"

“I can remember Tyler without having to light a candle, all right?” he answers.   

"Here, hold this!"

Kath demands that he holds her candle 

Off she goes to get another one 

and goes to get another one.

"I'm not quite sure where to start"

Colin wonders if he should start now and confesses that he is a bit nervous.   “I’m not quite sure where to start, to be honest,” he begins, 

"You could thank everyone for coming"

and Kath suggests he could thank everyone for coming, which he then does.

"What happened was a big shock to us all . . ."

“What happened last week was a big shock to us all, wasn’t it?   At a time like this, a lot of things feel very unimportant – 

". . . arguing about trivial things . . ."

“arguing about trivial things – silly things – complaining about the weather – 

". . . bickering about unimportant things"

“bickering about unimportant things.   

"What is important is friendship"

“What is important is friendship – being there for each other – how important it is to have people at your side.”

"Glad to see you've shown your face . . ."

Griffiths arrives and confronts Hywel;  “Glad to see you’ve shown your face – 

". . . I've lost count of all the phone calls"

“I’ve lost count of how many residents have phoned me because they can’t get hold of you.”

Cai intervenes to point out that it has been a difficult week, as he can probably appreciate;  Griffiths comments that it has been difficult for everyone, 

Then he goes to join Anita

as he goes to join Anita.

"We remember those who have left us"

Colin continues, “Of course, we are here tonight to remember those who have left us – 

"Tyler – he was such a nice bloke . . ."

“Tyler, of course – he was such a nice bloke . . . 

". . . and Dylan, yes"

“and Dylan, yes – he wasn’t a saint, but none of us are saints, are we?   And not just them – we are remembering everyone tonight.   We’re also thinking about those who are in hospital.   Gwern will need the whole village to be behind him.”

Cassie looks at . . .

At this point, Cassie is looking at 

. . . a photo of Gwyneth 

a photo of Gwyneth, as Colin goes on, “Eileen – we need to support her as well – we’re all in pain.   Now I’d like to ask Iolo to say a few words about Tyler for us.”

"We were about to start a new chapter"

Iolo hesitantly begins, “Thank you all for coming to remember Tyler – we were about to start a new chapter in our lives together – him, me and Greta.   

"Ty was an incredible father"

“You know, Ty was an incredible father, and Greta thought the world of him.   He’s going to leave a huge hole in her life.”

As he dissolves into tears, he says, “I can hear him now, telling me to stop being such a wimp!   

"Just remember the good times"

“Just remember the good times you had with him and share those memories of him – 

"Please don't forget him"

“and just, please, don’t forget him.”

"There is still light in Cwmderi"

“Let’s raise our candles to celebrate and to show there is still light in the Cwm,” 

They raise their candles

Colin encourages them.

"Tyler would have been proud"

Iolo turns to Dani and says, “Hopeless, wasn’t I?” but she replies that Tyler  would have been proud and gives him a hug.

Dani catches sight of . . .

As she does so she notices that Hywel is there, 

. . . Hywel, who is about to slink away

and preparing to go home.   

"It's your fault that Tyler's dead!"

She hurries after him, shouting, “How could you?   It’s your fault that Tyler’s dead – and it’s your fault Gwern’s in hospital!”

Cai comes to Hywel’s defence, but Dani insists that he has confessed;  

"You confessed in black and white"

“Haven’t you, Hywel, in black and white – ‘I’m sorry for what happened’!”

"He hasn't confessed to anything"

Cai points out that does not mean he has confessed to anything, but she screams, 

"Admission of guilt!"

“Admission of guilt, Cai – you were drinking and people saw you!”

"The test came back clear"

Cai calmly explains that the alcohol test came back clear, 

"You should be in prison!"

but she continues to shout, “You killed Tyler – and you almost killed Gwern!   You should be in prison!”   She continues her shouts as Iolo escorts her back to the Deri.   

Hywel is dreading the future

Hywel realises that this is far from over.