5 May 2020

Tesni's boring revision is over . . .

Tesni just alighted from the minibus bringing her back from the revision course, and calls to her brother, who is listening to music on his headphones.   

. . . and she is dissatisfied with Guto's welcome

She considers that it would be nice if he welcomed back;  “Aren’t you going to ask how it went?” she demands, 

"I can't wait to see Math"

“I’m never doing it again – it was like a boot camp!   I can’t wait to see Math – where is he?”

"Come home, Tes"

She can see from Guto’s pained expression that something is wrong, and he urges her to go home with him;  she demands, “What’s happened?   Is it Mam?   Has something happened to Gran?”   

"Er, Mathew . . ."

When he mentions Mathew’s name, 

"What's wrong with him?"

she wants to know what is wrong with him, but Guto simply urges her to come home.

She hastens towards the shop

She drops her case and runs towards the shop;  

Izzy is helping Mathew in the shop flat

in the flat upstairs Izzy is helping Mathew to sit down when they hear the sound of someone running up the stairs.   “Math, I’m back!” Tesni shouts, “I saw Guto – he wouldn’t say!”   

"What's happened?"

Then she stops in astonishment when she sees him;  “What’s happened?” she gasps.

Cysgod y Glyn is in somewhat of a mess

At Cysgod y Glyn, the buzzer sounds, and Ffion, still in her pyjamas, discovers that it is Rhys again.   He begs to be allowed to come in, 

Ffion reluctantly allows Rhys to come in

and this time she permits him to do so.   

"Where's Arwen?"

“Where’s Arwen?” he asks;  he is told that she is in her room, and that he should leave her alone as she is fine.   

"I've been worried about you"

“I’ve been worried about you – you’re not fine – you were drink-driving with Arwen in the car,” he growls, “Have you been drinking today?”   She maintains that she is sober, 

Rhys can see evidence of alcohol consumption

but he deduces from the bottles littering the place, that this is not the case.

“How long have you been back on the booze then?’ he wants to know, and when there is no reply, he goes on, “That’s why you wanted to separate – the menopause was a lie all along.   You were drinking again – I deserve to know the truth.”

"It doesn't matter now, does it?"

She answers that it does not matter now, 

"It matters to me, Ffi!"

but he insists that it matters to him.

"I had a right to know, Math!"

Tesni is angry;  “I had a right to know – one call or a text!”   Izzy points out that there has been a lot going on, and Mathew informs her that he tried to contact her before all this, but she was not available.

"I didn't want to upset you"

“And then I didn’t want to upset you,” he continues;  

"Who would want to do this to you?"

Tesni, in tears, wonders who want to do this to him.   

She thinks that he is withholding something

She believes there is something he is not telling her, reasoning that someone must have a big grudge against him to go to such lengths.

Then she asks, “Have the police caught them?”   

"Tesni, Mathew needs to rest now"

Izzy intervenes to point out that Mathew needs to rest now, 

"What's it got to do with you?"

but Tesni demands, “What’s it got to do with you?”   Izzy explains that she is staying in the flat, helping out.   

"I've got a lot to sort out at home"

Tesni that she is sorry, but she has not been home yet, and hurriedly leaves the flat, maintaining that she has a lot to sort out after being away, 

Mathew was afraid this would happen

so she will stay there tonight, and give him a chance to rest.

"I should never have tried to hurt you, Dan"

In the Deri flat, Garry tries to apologise to Dani for his actions;  “I should never have tried to hurt you – I was angry – not that it justifies what I did.”

"But the thought of you having an affair with Mathew . . ."

Dani agrees with him there, but he goes on, “The thought of you having an affair with Mathew upset me – I’m truly sorry.”   

"And I'm supposed to simply forget about it?"

Dani is not willing to simply forget about it, and is now going down to sort the bar out.   

Garry is warned to keep away

She warns him not to come down, as she needs some space.

"I manage to hide it well, don't I?"

“How did I not notice?” muses Rhys, and Ffion is gratified that she managed to hide it well.   “But you seemed OK,” he says, and she replies that alcohol helps her deal with things.

"I would have helped if I had noticed"

“I would have helped if I had noticed,” he protests, 

"There's no point in thinking like that now"

but she remarks there is no point in thinking like that now.   

"Ffi, you still mean a lot to me!"

“Ffi, you still mean a lot to me,” he tells her, but she says they have been through this before.

He is convinced that he has let her down – he should have been there to help her, and now wants to make up for it.   

"I want to work things out and start again"

He wants to work things out and start again, 

"Well I don't – so go!"

but she snarls, “Well I don’t, OK?   There is no ‘us’, so go.   Arwen is none of your business, because you’re not family.”

He argues that he has been and could be again, but she insists, “Rhys – you aren’t listening – it’s over!   Just go!”   

"But I love love you, Ffion!"

He again professes his love for her, 

She will not so much as look at him

but she does not even want to look at him, and he reluctantly leaves the flat.

Garry is idly toying with his ring

Garry is toying with his wedding ring when Dani comes back up to the flat, demanding, “Have you seen the new till rolls?”   

"You still don't believe me, do you?"

Then she looks at him and comments, “You still don’t believe me, do you?”   

He points out that Mathew is obsessed with her, and wonders why;  

"You must have done something to make him think that"

“You must have done something to make him think there’s something between you.”   

Dani goes back downstairs

Disgusted, she goes back down to the bar.

"I can't believe she drove with Arwen in the car"

Gaynor has been talking to the chair of the school governors about Ffion;  “I can’t believe she drove with Arwen in the car,” but Hywel is not surprised as that is what alcoholics are like – fooling themselves.   He is not pleased to hear that Rhys has gone to see Ffion, asking why Gaynor did not dissuade him, but she reminds him that it is none of her business.

Hywel lurks out of sight in the kitchen

Then there is a knock at the door, and they are surprised that it is Ffion;  

"Everything is all right – it won't happen again"

“Look, I just wanted to assure you that everything is all right, after what happened the other day,” she says, “And it won’t happen again.”

"I've heard that before, Ffion!"

Gaynor has heard that story before, and cannot ignore this:  “I have to think about the pupils,” but Ffion stresses that it did not happen at school.   “Thank goodness it didn’t,” she is told.

"I've been doing my job, haven't I?"

Ffion insists, “I’ve been doing my job, haven’t I?   You had no idea that I . . .”   This cuts no ice with Gaynor, 

"You need help . . ."

who points out that Ffion needs help;  “I’m getting help from my friends,” Ffion reminds her.

". . . professional help"

Gaynor makes it clear that she means professional help;  “And sorry, you can’t come back to work – the well-being of the pupils comes first.   

Hywel listens to the conversation

“I will support you, but you have to sort this out – I shall need a doctors note from you as well.”

"Who cares about me?"

“Yes, of course you have to follow the guidelines – who cares about me?” Ffion laughs, and walks out of the house.   

"You did the right thing, Gaynor"

Hywel looks concerned, but reassures Gaynor that she did the right thing.

"Why didn't you tell me about Mathew?"

Guto finds his sister standing outside the chippy? and says that he took her case home.   “Why didn’t you tell me about Mathew?” she demands, 

"Mam and Dad didn't want anyone to contact you"

and he explains that their mother and father did not want anyone to contact her.   “You didn’t have to take notice of them,” she complains.

He admits that he was upset and could not handle things, so she flies off the handle;  

"You're upset?   I could be next!" 

“You were upset!   My boyfriend is never going to be the same again – and you’re upset!   Someone should have told me – I should have been there.   What if someone targeted him?   I might be next!”

"You're going on and on about yourself"

Guto has had enough of her histrionics, and tells her to shut up;  “You’re going on and on about yourself – and that no-one told you.   You should be glad you weren’t there, Tes.   I know Mathew won’t be the same – do you know why?   

"I found him – burning and screaming!"

“Because I found him – I saw him on the floor, burning and screaming – and I’d do anything to change what I saw!   

"For once, this isn't about you, Tes!"

“So for once, Tes, this isn’t about you!”

Rhys does some cycle maintenance

Rhys is doing some running repairs on his bike when his father walks down the street;  

"Ffion was in a terrible state"

“I went to see Ffion earlier,” Rhys tells him, “She was in a terrible state – she’s been drinking for ages, and the place was a mess.”

"Gaynor insists she go to rehab"

Hywel informs him that Gaynor has insisted that she goes to rehab again;  

"You should stay away – for Arwen's sake"

“She needs professional help – you should stay away.   It won’t benefit anyone if you’re back and forth, especially Arwen.”

"I'm going to see Mathew"

Rhys is about to go and see Mathew, and Hywel says he is proud of his son.

"It's hard to know what to say"

In the Deri, Dani agrees with Izzy that it is hard to know what to say;  

"This is not about Tesni"

“Tesni is upset, but this is not about her,” Izzy comments, and Dani points out that they all have to deal with the fallout.   “It puts things into perspective, doesn’t it?” says Izzy.

"It makes you realise what you really want out of life"

“Yeah, it makes you realise what’s important,” Dani adds, “What you really want out of life,” just as Garry is walking past, and appears to be in a very grumpy mood.

"How do you put up with him, Dani?"

“How do you put up with him?” Izzy enquires, 

"I really don't know"

and Dani replies that she really does not know, 

Garry is listening

as he is by the foot of the stairs, listening.

"The father and son in one day – aren't I lucky?"

Now Hywel has gone to Cysgod y Glyn;  “The father and son in one day – aren’t I lucky?” Ffion jokes.   She tells him that Arwen is with Siôn, 

"How are you feeling after the chat with Gaynor?"

and he wonders how she is feeling after the chat with Gaynor.  

"You must be loving it – no-one had noticed"

She sneers, “You must be loving it – I was doing my job, and no-one in school had noticed.”   

He maintains that whether or not someone notices is not the point;  

"The point is, you're going to die"

“The point is, you’re going to die if you don’t get treatment.”   
She is of the opinion that would suit him down to the ground, but he protests that he wants her to get better.   

"Do you want to see Arwen grow up?"

“You can’t carry on like this – what about Arwen?   Do you want to see her grow up?   Because if you carry on like this, you won’t.   Look what you’re doing to yourself – you have to get treatment, Ffion – it’s the only hope!”

"I've tried – and I've failed"

She goes across to sit on the sofa;  “I’ve tried, haven’t I?   And I’ve failed.”   

"You'll have to try again – for yourself and Arwen"

He tells her that she will have to try again – for herself and for Arwen.   

"I'm scared – what if I can't do it?"

“I’m scared – what if I can’t do it?” she wails, but Hywel maintains that she is strong, and he has complete faith in her.   He will be here for her, and will look after Arwen while she is away.   

"It costs thousands – I can't afford it"

“It costs thousands – I can’t afford it,” she explains, so he agrees that he will help with the costs.   

"Why would you do that?"

She wonders why he would do that, and he says that he wants to see her get better, a claim which she finds preposterous.

Mathew is packing his bag

Rhys goes to see Mathew, who is packing a bag, in preparation for going away;  he does not care where he is going, but is adamant that he has to.   

"I can't bear the way people look at me!"

“I can’t bear the way people look at me!” he rages, but Rhys says he is not thinking straight.   “I know what I’m doing,” Mathew insists, 

"What about Tesni?"

but Rhys reminds him about Tesni.

"She can't stand to look at me"

Mathew groans, “She can’t stand to look at me – I knew this is how it would be,” but Rhys informs him that running away will not fix anything.   

"What have I got to offer her now – or anyone?"

“Rhys, look at me – what have I got to offer her now – or anyone?   There’s nothing here for me any more.”   

"We're doing it because we like you"

Rhys stresses that he has friends who have looked after him round the clock, but he says they only feel sorry for him;  “No, we’re doing it because we like you – we want you here.   What am I supposed to do if you leave?   We’re mates – we share everything – I can’t do that if you’re not here.   And I need you now,” he confesses, “Please!”

Guto hurls darts at the board

Guto is trying to relieve his pent-up emotions by angrily flinging darts at the board when he is joined by Tesni;  she wants to know where the incident happened.   

"I tried to help, Tes"

“Outside Tapas,” he tells her, “I didn’t see who did it – I tried to help, Tes – 

"He was just screaming – I couldn't do anything"

“I poured water on him and stuff, but he was just screaming – I couldn’t do anything.   I was just standing there.   

"I can't sleep – I just hear his screams"

“I’ve never heard anything like that, Tes.   It didn’t stop – it still hasn’t stopped – I can’t sleep – I just hear his screams, you know – see his skin burning.

"I can't go to see him, Tes!"

“I haven’t been to see him – I can’t go to see him – I can’t, Tes!” 

Tesni hugs her brother

and she hugs him.

Ffion is rather quickly going into rehab

As a taxi stops outside Bethania, Ffion is saying goodbye to Arwen;  “Mam loves you more than the whole world, all right?” she says, “And I’ll be back soon, I promise.”   

She kisses Arwen 

Gaynor approaches past the shop;  after Ffion kisses Arwen, she thanks Hywel, and her case is loaded into the taxi.

Hywel explains to Gaynor

Hywel tells Gaynor he suspects that Ffion felt ashamed, so asked him to pick up Arwen.   

Rhys has an Easter present for Arwen 

Then Rhys joins them;  he has an Esther present for Arwen, 

He is told of Ffion's destination

and is told that Ffion is going to rehab;  

"No, leave her, Rhys"

he is stopped by his father from going over to her,

Ffion gets into the taxi

and she gets into the taxi.   

They watch as Ffion is driven away

Rhys looks devastated as it drives away.

"I do believe you, Dani"

Up in the Deri flat, Garry assures Dani that he does believe her – that she is not having an affair.   

"I can't take much more of this, Garry"

Unconvinced, she replies, “Do you mean that – or are you just saying it?   Because I can’t take much more of this, Garry.”   Again he assures her that he does mean it, 

She goes back downstairs

but without a further word, she goes back down to the bar.